there's another place for me to write
another way to express

so less will go here.

it's not an easy thing
it's not a hard thing, either

i'm just not good at this
this trusting
this leaping

i'm about to
but there's something holding me back
i'm in my own way

the planning
the control
the need to know

i hate surprises
but i trust You
and i know You
and i love You

most of all

You provide

okay, now
now i'm really ready. or i think i am.
so i'll just keep waiting and praying
until i know what You want

am i living for today?
my heart is living for you

i think i'm ready

starting a new show
caught up with another i'd never seen before
but waiting on this one episode-
dying to see it
but waiting to see

this is what happens when i have time off work