i feel

guarded

withdrawn

and yet

the hurt

and negativity

penetrate

to my core

i cannot

continue risking

must change

defense strategy

take a chance

it seems

my walls

function not

nothing outward

no expression

only within

can you see

the pain

the anguish

the bitter defeat

i gave up

and gave in

let it take

let it feed

but not now

no more

of this

i cleanse

and set free

and release

my heart

through You

claim it

it's Yours

and not his

my broken

weeping

yet redeemed

heart