L A

so lost, so alone

but filled

really loved

depth and water

fame and fortune

not for me

but for some

the absolute

the fear

the love

and the trust

not sure
not so sure
anymore

of where

it all

went wrong

i thought

i had

a bit

some traits

some looks

and my boobs

that might

just might

make you look

make you want

make you talk

make you smile

maybe even

someone else

maybe him

i think

i think that

i do

and sometime

someday

he'll talk

he'll talk

to me

all day

everyday

forever

the days remaining

roaming and wandering, all throughout my mind, is, you, not you, You.

roaming and wandering, all throughout my mind, is, you, not you, but You.

You touch each corner, each part

You are always present, despite my attempts to ignore

You never leave, never forsake.

Just like You said You would, or wouldn't do.

The regret, and dismay

are temporary

but Your forgiveness,

is eternal.

in the midst of my failure

in the midst of utter despair

in the midst of right now

You, You, You, You

sick of the ridicule

sick of the chaos

to LA

far away

a dream

deferred

realized

and needed

accomplished much

but still so little

heaviness

outweighs what

might be considered

light

fragile

feet

tender

hands

immensely changed

rendered the same

fog, so much fog

i can't see straight

much less think clearly

the air affects it all

what fog, what clouds

all lovely, all perfect

but at what price

and what consequence