alone, so alone, so fucking alone

even within my own family

so alone, so alone, and by myself

regardless of location or time

i'll field your questions,

if you'd just ask

i'd tell you about myself,

if you would just think to ask

never mind

i expect too much

thankful for faith
and trust

thankful that You're with me

i can't even win at this

friendship

valued, but not

kind, but not

what mistakes i've made

what disappointments.

truth is i want to be apathetic, and care less than i do