i distrust
my own emotions
my own heart

and yet i trust
those of others
and yours

genuinely
i want
to know you more

i have no words
i have only this

this feeling of regret
this feeling of betrayal

i've been lanced
i've had my heart torn out

i don't know what to do
you are a best

were a best?
what now?

i don't know
how to be

fuck
what the fuck

what am i trying to say
and still not getting across?

how can i express
just how much i love You?

i need You to know
i want to tell You

more often than i do
more often than i have

You're my everything
all in all

You're kind of it
truly

surrender
I do

to You
and Your will

it isn't as easy
following you
as i believed
that it would be

i'm wandering
behind You
attempting to step
in Your steps

but Yours are larger
bigger, and better
i trip and i fall
again. and again.

i don't even know
how i'm supposed to feel

when are you going to make it clear?
when will i know?

listen to me.
hear my confusion.

hear my heart.
know my soul.

i think you already do
and yet i doubt.

and i need an answer
please

leaving.
tomorrow i'm finally

thrice.
i am loving

You
i need.