a song i keep thinking

"this world is empty, pale, and poor compared to knowing You my Lord. so lead me on and i will run after You. lead me on and i will run after You."

so true.

i fail. an epic fail. can't even come close. and yet You do. You draw near. You embrace.

one, two, three, four

blink

and miss

what you should

have seen before

try

and catch

the thing that

escaped your grasp

run

and stop

there's no use

it can't be caught

you

missed it

you failed it

you failed me, too

given up

i give it up

You know what

it's nothing bad

it's nothing lame

it's a good thing

but not right now

can i have it back later

when Your time is right

slow my mind

put a stop to my plans

replace my plans

with Yours

goosebumps

i want to feel Your goosebumps

up and down my arms

reminding me i'm still alive

and that You are near

pinch my skin

whisper in my ear

tell me You love me

and that you'll never leave me

oak

i am an oak of righteousness

tall and firm i stand

only because of Christ

only by His grace

i offer shade and protection

only because God provided the same for me

i am an example of great love

and great faithfulness

the faithfulness of a God everlasting

of a God so personal and close

i stand tall because He is my support

i stand firm because He holds me

He planted me, rooted me, watered me

and so here i stand

to demonstrate His glory

for thousands of generations

it is You

it is You

whom i love

it is You

who stays the same

it is You

whom i desire

it is You

who is full of love

it is You

who doesn't abandon

it is You

and only You

it is You

You and no other

it is You

You and no other

sleep

jeans off
pj pants on
hit the light
crawl into bed
snuggle in blanket
turn on fan
turn off heater
pray
drink water
toss and turn
remember to set alarm
reposition
stick out feet
fall asleep

new

a new me
depends on You.

can You help me
become better?

will you change me?
i know it's possible.

i trade this life
replace it with You.

my life is Yours
Your will is mine.

i rest within You
You heal me- inside and out.

a new me
because of You

finally

it's over
it has been for a while
i just have yet to tell you
but i'm sure my actions speak louder

i don't want to be near you all the time
i don't even care if your name is mentioned
and this is an amazing thing
after 7 years

you think you can get back with me
you think i'll be your bootycall
but i refuse
i'm worth more than that

i let it happen for years
thinking i was no better
thinking i deserved it
because it meant i could be with you

i realize now how stupid i was
and what an ass you were
i don't love you anymore
i never will again

so you can call me all you want
you can try and be all sweet and nice
but you will never have this heart again
because it has moved on