it's understood

he must pursue

who You want for me

must choose me

i'm not exactly ready

but i'm not unprepared

newness

difference

i don't feel stressed

i'm not scared

Yahweh, this is Yours

I am Yours

didn't you think it would have happened by now?

didn't you think it'd be different?

this isn't what i imagine,

much less dreamed for

i'm not saying it's better or worse

it's just the unexpected

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leader

friend

sister

daughter

roommate

best friend

missionary

but something is missing

i think something is missing

Yahweh, my Yahweh

may you be exalted

in my life

and through my life

glory to you

and not to myself

may you be in the midst

and all around

you are near

and i need you

remind me

move me

truth is all that you are

and i can't even grasp that

work within

may you flow through me

Yahweh- hold my heart close to yours

for i am weak and nearly willing

not really willing, but rather

desiring to give up

renew my spirit

give me strength and peace in the fullest measure

Yahweh, my Abba

please

and now to bed, to bed for me. believing Him, who dwells in me, to be the one to make me dream, to give me hope and give me peace. to Him be all the glory