well that extra cash just paid the utilities. so much for actual extra cash.

i'm still grateful

another waiting day

praying

long days make me think the most

especially when i don't want to be thinking

or feeling

apathy- oh how i wish you were near again

and i wish my heart didn't exist.

that my mind wouldn't wander

and i wouldn't care at all

for you. or something like you. or something like what i think i want.

i haven't even met you

and yet i've prayed for you

you don't know my name

i don't know if i even know yours

but i'm praying for you

i'm praying for us