five

i feel i cannot
break through this brick wall
i really need life
on the other side
run climb fall climb fall

this is the pattern
ridiculous, right?
why can't it change now?
must i fall again?
scale the wall, fall down

again and again
same quagmire today
same thing tomorrow
i have tried and failed
i am not controlled

i crave more, so much
but am i willing
to do what it takes
to obtain it all?
i doubt i can be

will You help me please?
I need You so much
right now, forever
change it all, Yahweh
i love You, love You.